I have been wanting to write this down for awhile, but don't know how to say all that I want to and don't want to sound anything except for what we are, so bear with me.

The last three months have been the hardest three months of our lives. Even in saying that, I know that there is so much more suffering that goes on in the world than what goes on in our little world, but we all have our individual paths that the Lord leads us on. I've even said to the Lord, "I know there is so much bigger stuff in the world, but this is huge in my little world." I think He understands that.

I literally am not able to divulge the details of our journey for a lot of reasons. First, legally. Second, most of them are boring and distracting from the purpose of the trial we have endured. Basically, we have been betrayed, stabbed in the back, kicked in the stomach, lied to, stolen from and hurt by people we considered friends.

The reason I am writing all of this down is to remember that the Lord truly is a strong tower for His children. My dated reading...not what I sought out to read, but what was dated for October 30, 2009 was pointed exactly to what we were going through. Every single day, it was that way. I am not kidding. I had about 10 quiet times per day for the first couple of weeks that we were going through this and His word is truly alive and everything to me. As the psalmist says in Psalm 119...if not for His word, I would have perished during my affliction. David and I went through so many emotions...and had so many emotions. We would sit at the kitchen table every morning...just as we do every morning...and have done every morning for a long time and just weep, or fuss, or just talk. I've never felt so close to my husband and I've never been prouder of him. To watch him seek the Lord, seek counsel from Godly mentors, and continue to walk in integrity through every moment of the trial is humbling. and amazing.

I weep just sitting here thinking about all of the miracles the Lord performed for us during the past three months and how He still is. David and I have never really gone through much in our lives. We've had hard times...David more than me...but nothing so life changing and sudden as we just had. I can honestly say now that I know the Lord is real. His promises are true. He does not leave us nor forsake us. He is just. He is faithful. He is everything. His grace really is enough. I am so thankful that I have the Lord. My life would be pointless and miserable without Him. He is truly my life. The life and breath of this family. We will serve Him all the days of our life...no matter what...no matter what anyone thinks of us or says of us, we will.

I don't know what anyone is going through. If you would have seen me over the last three months, you would have thought we were fine. If you would've asked, I probably would have told you that we were going through a hard time, but you wouldn't know that it was the hardest thing we've ever gone through. I know others are going through stuff too. It is life. So, I want anyone to know that it is true that the Lord is compassionate and gracious. It is not just something nice to say to someone. It is true that He works out everything according the purpose of His will. It is true. His promises are true. He is everything.