Jealousy is not really something that I have ever dealt with. Trust me when I say that I have plenty of issues, but this is just not one of mine. Sure, there have been times that I have wanted something that someone else had, but not ever to the point of not wanting that person to have whatever it was. Until recently. And, I have been jealous of my own husband! It sounds so crazy, and I couldn't have even put my finger on it until last night.
I had kind of been frustrated with David over little things and just not as sweet as I should be to him lately and I really didn't know why. David is an incredible husband and dad and he is so helpful with anything I ask him to do. But lately, it was like he couldn't do anything right in my eyes. Poor guy. So, I am reading an incredible book right now by Lysa Turkeurst called "The Bathtub is Overflowing But I Feel Drained." In my reading last night, she went through evaluating your marriage and went through each of the characteristics of love in 1 Corninthians 13. When I got to jealousy, it hit me like a ton of bricks. I realized that I have been jealous of David over the last few weeks. Jealous that he got to get a shower everyday. Jealous that he gets to go to work everyday...I miss work so much. Jealous that he didn't have to nurse. Jealous that he could sleep without guilt. Jealous that Sam wants him all day long. You name it. And, how silly! None of these things are extraordinary or ridiculous...just normal stuff. I immediately told David that I was so sorry that I have been jealous of him. He is so gracious and didn't go into condemnation like he could have. I feel so much better now!
Anyway, just something the Lord is working on in me and I didn't want to neglect to praise Him for revealing something to me. I feel so clean when He convicts me of sin; especially sin that has lingered. I am so thankful that Jesus provided a way for us to be cleansed of sin! Praise Him!